Spontaneity is nice.

So basically, I'm a bit single-minded right now. As in I am only thinking about essentially one thing. Blahhhh, I knew it would be so hard. Oh yes, you knew it would be so hard as well. Haha, I'm pretty predictable, aren't I? Well, I wish things could just go as I want them to go, because any other way rips my heart apart into tiny little pieces. I am so confuseddddd, I get mixed signals from you, and I hope I respond the right way most of the time. I am sorry if I don't.

I HATE THE END OF VACATIONS. AND BREAKS. AND THE BEGINNING OF SCHOOL. It is so hard leaving some place where I've been shacked up for 6 days or so to go back to stress and other unpleasantries as a general rule of thumb, and you know it. It makes it especially hard when there are people who are interesting and lovely there with you, who do not live with you and will have to leave at some point. It sucks. haha :)

Ahhh well, silly me. Just being a goob. Because that is silly to say after a whole week. Haha. But I don't know, it feels like JLA all over again ;) Not the greatest, but I suppose it will heal with time :) We'll see.

In other news, guess which girl received her gold-plated Gold Award pin today? Err...sometime this week then I guess. But still. Things are falling into place, which is super le good :)

Ahhh, well. First of all. You two. Are ridiculous. But I love you both. Thanks thanks thanks thankssss you for the lovely basket of noms that I wish I were hungry for right now, that is super nice and makes me happy and feel undeserving to have two lovely lovely friends :)

My super happy get-better basket! 

The cute note.

AND THE HEART SHAPED GRILLED CHEESE :) ♥

On the other hand. Sometimes you guys are ridiculous. In the sense that you draw my inner, dark side out :( Which isn't always good. And I no want to kill things. Haha. For the world. So yes. All I need to say on here.

After an interesting surprise visit and a bajillion hour car ride and an oboe session, I'd say this has been a full day. I will miss you all, I am grateful for many of you, and I hope everyone has lovely night times :) Adiosss!

S.O.S.

Classiness all day, erryday.

Photo opt time. 

And we really just couldn't pass up the chance to take a picture with a rainbow waterfall.

Would really be thankful for a list of things to be thankful for right now.

So I went Black Friday shopping today. Got up at 3:50 to hit the local outlet mall area. It was exhausting. Although it was as fun as Black Friday shopping can be. I mean. Getting up early. Usually in the cold. Looking naystay. But, getting deals. Pretending to be intense and stuff and beating the crowd. It almost outweighs the bad ;) But you know. It was an interesting experience.

For the first time, I slept easily and nicely from like 8 to 3. Lawlcats.

Fiona and I walked Broadway at the Beach later, after we had awakened ourselves from the dead. That wassss fun, because that place is like a circus/amusement park/outdoor mall and very touristy. But entertaining. The tourist business knows what it is doing xD I enjoy the random pictures and boutiques and purchases.

Daaaw, the magical, wonderful "Sparkle Wish" princess!

I really really really really really want to build a blanket fort right now. That would be nice. I like those. Haven't made one in foreverrrr.

We just finished packing the vast majority of our stuff :/ The place looks infinitely better, but it is a-mucho sad that I have to leave and that I can't keep her in a box forever. haha. You know. Goodbyes are no fun.

The culmination of our mess after 6 days. Shoo boy. 

I hate human flaws and that you can't fix them. I really really hate it when you're aware of them too, in yourself. And you just sit back, watching yourself destroy everything in your path with them. Sorry isn't good because sometimes that is the flaw itself. Too much sorry.

Why does leaving always have to hurt so much? Why don't vacations forcibly make you feel better? When does life get easier? Why do I have so many questions? When do I get to stop asking questions?

Help?

Nom nom, peppermint brownies.

Ahhh, well. You know. Another day at the beach. Woo beans. Not much more to talk about there. It's like politics; the news doesn't cover a candidate's or politician's ideals mainly because they stay the same. Ha, government. Well, beach is staying the same. I don't really see the point in saying it again ;)

Today was pretty blah. You know. I like pools. But I like human happiness even more. And interaction. Yes :) haha. I just don't want vacation to be over before I've had a chance to feel like I'm on vacation for more than a minute. Not complaining. It could be worse. But it could be better.

 I hate school. And homework.

Tomorrow's Thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving ya'll. Please have happiness and no stress and no work and peace n blessings.

Yes.

You know what? Beach beach beach.

First day on the beach. Twas sandy. Lots and lots of sand. Oh dayng. So much sand. It got everywhere. I was displeased. But in the meantime, it was worth it. Naice naice photo shootsing. Nice nice subjects. Nice nice pichas. Nice scenery. Perfecto.

Yes. We had quite a few adventures at this time.

Including hunting down the bottle of yakisoba sauce used for our dinner. Nom nom NOM yakisoba, that stuff is REALLY REALLY like heaven on earth. We went to three different stores in Myrtle Beach looking for the most important ingredient, but our diligence paid off and we found it eventually :) What a proud moment in time for us. I would also like to promote the use of World Market, which is an AMAZINGGG store. So so much love. And fun things in it :)

So after the beach and the journey, we made yakisoba. And that was interesting. A few things didn't go according to the recipe and like we did at JLA, but Fiona and I persevered and came out with a pot full of nom and full tummys. I'd say...success :)

How was your day? :) Hope everyone is getting ready for the holidays! Stay happy!

A wonderful beauty in the eye of the beholder.

As a wise friend once said...or wisely quoted from someone, "Beauty is an action, not a noun. No amount of makeup, no style of clothing, no face structure or body type can give you what your actions can't." God bless, this is mucho of the trufactz right here. 




My life, is at the beach right now. That is very lovely and just...nice. Being at the beach means there is no school and not being in school makes me a happy happy camper. So that is alright and I am alright. And I like holidays and Thanksgiving and beachs and weekends and fun stuffs. You know what? I shall now proceed to have lovely meals and lovely dance parties and lovely dress ups and and lovely photo shoots and a lovely week :) Bedford County School Admin can't do a thing to stop me from having a good time and enjoying myself. Boom.


Well, I was GOING to put some pictures up of the beginning of my adventures at the beach places, but blogspot decided it was not a fan of this and so. Said no. Oh poops. Maybe tomorrow then.


RAPE IS BAD, NEVER PROMOTE IT.


All the sick people in the world should feel better. And eat moar chikin. 


That is all.
This has been a 'mergency public service announcement.


Jirian <3

Many words for an end, or uno.

Well ladies and gents, this is it, ONE MORE DAY LEFT UNTIL ONE OF THE GREATEST PERIODS OF TIME IN MY LIFE OCCURS. God bless America, let this Friday pass quite speedily and let her get here safely and quickly and let me have the time of my life before I go out and top that the following week. So. much. excitement. Not gonna lie.

Imagine what life would be like if all there was was "just talking" and refreshing pleasantries. I guess I shouldn't wish for that since I would be craving intelligent, profound conversation by that point, but it would be nice to have a little more of that in my life.

I am quite proud. I am completely wiped and it's scarcely 10 o'clock. Am I getting old or am I just sleep deprived? Is going to bed right now. This is good.

11/11/11 11:11

Well, there is no other title suitable for the day and moment :) Call me crazy, call me cheesy, but I love it and I appreciate it and I wished upon it twice. I think this is all I need to talk about this post :)

So I tried something new, in writing and wishing :) Immediately after, I just sat down and wrote my impressions and thoughts and just anything I was thinking about at that time. I don't think I'll say anything else, but just let ya read it now :)

11/11/11

11:12pm

I shall never forget it for as long as I live. Me, the kid who lived through one of the greatest events in history, never to happen again. The moment still lingers fresh in my mind as only moments ago, I wished upon the second and last 11/11/11 11:11, the last of the best. It was as if the world held its breath, the sound completely sucked away in preparation and awe. Some may call us crazy, those that believe in superstition and those that wish, those that dream. Yet we continue to observe and respect the natural forces that are inevitably at work here. As I sat in the silence, alone, waiting for that special moment, my breath began to become uneven, my palms began to sweat slightly. What was happening and why was this so important? I like to live with values and you value what you can when you can. The clock ticks, and suddenly, I'm swept into the magical vortex of the moment. Everything disappears as I travel with a speed that belittles light and sound. I close my eyes and begin to wish. And wish and wish and wish. I wish for solutions, I wish for enlightenment, I wish for new beginnings and a better life and somehow, I know that this is real. I know my wishes will come true. As I sink deeper and deeper into a dark trance, I slowly begin to turn, spinning faster and faster until suddenly, it's over. Just like that. One minute, no more, no less. And I realize that time goes on, that it WILL go on, that no one acknowledges important snapshots of history when they experience them, that it is all just a game. I realize that it is up to myself alone to maintain what I feel, think, and do and despite the shifts of others, I will always believe. Because I believe in magic, I believe in miracles, and I believe in wishes.

So yes. That is how I feel :) I'd be interested to hear what other people thought. 

Also, I highly recommend the movie Lemonade Mouth, even if it issss a Disney Channel Original Movie. Is nice and has a great concept and stuff. Not entirely cheesy on the part of Disney for once :) 

Alrighty, well. I'm off to have pleasant sleeps and dreams. Have fantastic, fun weekends! Until next time, you know the drill ;) 

Toodles! 

Free Time?

Lately, I've had a ton of free time. Iz real naice. No marching band, not much homework (since I do it at school), and I can sleep when I really need to. I've been doing a lot of writing. I forgot to post of the poems I wrote two days ago and tonight I just kinda wrote this...thing that doesn't mean too much, just something I felt compelled to write. Since I want to look like I actually have a lot to post, I'm only going to put one up tonight, the thing/paragraph of sorts. It doesn't exactly have a name either, but I felt obligated to give it one, therefore what you see is a tentative, ill-fitting name. Yeah.

Also, I like getting happy surprise notes or just happy surprises. They is nice. Ah laike. Thanks you, I appreciate your beans, dear, as I've said many times before :)

And oh, can't forget a special shout out to a friend who has been long lost to me (for a month or so, at least) for a time, but now is back. I have happiness :) Herro there, missy. Glad to see you back. Be happy, kay?

Alrighty, writing time.

The Underground

Here I am, racing through the dark corridor of the mind, the dark corridor of empty words and forced expressions. Heart pounding, silently, move faster, I run and run. I run because I can, because that is all they cannot take away from me. My life, my image, gone, melted away through reckless action and feeling. So I run, with a passion I haven't felt in a long time. I'm so consumed, so blinded, but it drives me, it is my life, with it I am human. I need it and it needs me, but I don't want it. My battered feet push faster, harder, against the grimy floors, I'm not sure that I won't slip. Just the endless expanse of black brick, slick with the drainage of this city, flowing, the river of death. And it leads me to the underworld. My teeth clench when I wheel around and around, desperately searching for a sign, a break in the conformity, so monotonous, it drills and I am helpless to stop it. Stop, they said, stop and give it a rest for a while. They don't understand. I would if I could, but I can't. See the halt, sweat beading in the corners and my hands clenched, open, close, open, close. Drops of blood trickle off my hand from where my fingernails have bitten into my skin, they have only done what they were told, the fault is mine. God, that isn't important right now. Focus, focus, keep your head in the game and don't screw it up like you did the last time. They said there was a ladder, just a mile back and forth, and the light. I thanked them, but what help were they? Back and forth, to and fro, I need a real sense here, not just the little game of hide and seek they loved to play. They had time to play, those rogues; we never saw anything other than the dusty coal mines they so depended on. So this was just another game. I need the portal, I need the way out. Now. Ba bum. Ba bum. Silence for a while. Helps me think as I run. A halt. Clang. Then nothing.

 Yepp, that's all I have for now. Have a lovely evening, have happiness, do well in yo studies, etc. Tata for now!

P.S. Be sure to wish on 11:11 tomorrow. I mean, hey, don't you want to say you wished on 11/11/11 11:11? :) And what if your wish really does come true? Keep the mind open to the possibilities!

I'm out :)